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Until Morning When We Dissapear..
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[Sunday,
September 26th, 2004] |
NEVERMIND I FOUND THE PASSWORD
NEVER LOOK AT THIS ONE EVER AGAIN
EVER.
new one - __trendy_fuck
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[Sunday,
September 26th, 2004] |
uh. k. i forgot my password no my other one. so i just need a new code jawn and this one will be fine.
well on friday me bre and angela ended up just going to franklin mills. we took pictures and more picuters and guys threw things at us and ruined the pictures. >:o fools
we wasted money at da dolla store and i bought 14g barbels for my ears from this guys who WASNT chinese dot dot dot
OH YEAH this guy on the bus was really weird. he was all listening to our conversation and like butting in at random times. and then out of no where hes like "how would i look as a woman?"
hhahadhsuk jeeze what a FUR EEK
AND on the bus oin the way home there was little black boy .. he had to of been like .. 3 or 4.. and hahaha omg.. he was like stripping for us and then he like un zipped his pants and grabbed his crotch and yeah he was weird. the bus got SO crowded and like people were up againts both doors because there wasnt enouigh space and these black guys were smoking weed ON THE EFFIN bus. it was crayzay
BUT yeah. i had fun with angela and bre. they rawk lyk hardcore <3
and im getting really sick. *pout*
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[Tuesday,
September 21st, 2004] |
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NEW LJ NAME BECAUSE THIS ONE WENT CRAZY
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) __trendy_fuck
it shall be friends only. <3
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[Sunday,
September 19th, 2004] |
Don't mind da last entrys. I was all "oo0oh look at me i'm a fag and im not in a good mood"
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAAH
im watching punk'd and ashton was all " I AM SHAKING IT LIKE A POLAROID PICTURE" and .. yeah its not gonna be funny tro you because u didnt see it. but i did and i just peed myself a little.
Brittany might be at her grammys on saturday. And if she is we're going on a date. And.. we're gonna...hold hands! XD
i ♥ bein happy. Tis awesome. Thats why I'm not lettin dumb shit bother me anymore. :]
♥ night night
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[Sunday,
September 19th, 2004] |
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This happens eevveerryy ffrreeekkkiinn tttiiimmmee. It pisses me off so fucking bad and makes me want to cry but at the same time I don't care at all.
I'm just so sick of being lied to and taken for granted.
You make me fucking insane.
Liar. You're such a fucking liar.
Shutup.I don't want to hear it.
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[Saturday,
September 18th, 2004] |
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I guess I should just stop.
I take things too seriously
I really don't like living here
Everythings changing and I hate it.
goodnight...
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[Saturday,
September 18th, 2004] |
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Wow.
So Anthony calls Johns around..3:00 am? He says he's stuck at Academt and Red Lion rd and says he needs a ride. SO Me, Brendon, Sharon, and Rob all get in Brendons car and try and go find him. After getting lost alot, we FINALLY get there. And what happens? Brendon hits the curb and the tire goes completely flat. With no spare. And douche bag anthony already got someone to pick him up. So we finally decided to just walk. And it was raining. And I didn't have any shoes. But Brendon gave me his and I felt really bad. So we walked. And walked. And walked. But I actually didn't mind. We all talked a whole lots. And we now have a Trust Bubble. And yeh 58989078457543654768543769857689538943 cop cars drove past us and not ONE stopped and asked what we were doing out past cerfew or something.
And the next person who gets a fucking attitude with me is getting their fucking ass beat. And I'm no where near kidding.
But yeah, all in all johns was alright. I had 2 shots and thats it because I still get sick when I smell alchohol. I should have never done shot for shot with John at Ozzys b-day.
So I don't think I'm drinkin anymore. And even if I do, not alot..
I'm really bored.
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[Thursday,
September 16th, 2004] |
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Last night was kind of gay. But I saw people sO i guess thats coo'. While I was waiting for Adam, Bill was waiting with me and he was all "aw you look great, in fact, i really can't remember a time when you didn't look good ect ect". I guess it was nice of him, but weird at the same time. Me, Adam and Crystal left before the Midnight Moshpit. And Zack wanted me to go in the girl one (cuz..they like, lighly push..and theyre gay) and kick everyone with my boot. AND I WAS SO LOOKING FORWARD TO IT. But yeah. I saw John and Andrew. That was cool..sept I really didn't expect to see Andrew there. UMMM.
Yeah. I don't fink I'm gonna go anymore. I mean I like hangin out with Jackie and Nicole and them..just not there.
I prolly wudda had more fun if I just hung out with Rob, Sharon, Bill, Steve, Ian and whatnot..but oh well. Shampoo wasn't THAT bad.
♥
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[Tuesday,
September 14th, 2004] |
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EDIT
breas right. you all can suck my penis.
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[Tuesday,
September 14th, 2004] |
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You fucking people. "Guys.. I'm so ugly...Yet fucking everyone tells me im hott all the time and my face is on every fucking website ever made"
If you really thought you were THAT terrible looking then I highly doubt you would have the confidence to join a whole bunch of 'rate-me' websites.
And at the same time, you could just be doing it to boost your confidence. So now I doubt myself, but I'll update this anyway.
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[Monday,
September 13th, 2004] |
I need a vent that can actually help me out, something besides this stupid ass fucking journal. "Oh let me confess lots of stuff to *LiVeJoUrNaL* so people can read and not care." I'm tired of noone taking me fucking seriously. "Oh, it's just Alley, she won't care." I don't know why I'm complaining because it's my fault anyway. I never speak my mind, I never tell someone when something.. or when they.. bother me. I'm just tired of always biting my tongue. I'm tired of making myself promises that I never ever keep.
None of you are going to take this seriously. If anyone even read this peice of shit journal of mine. And I don't blame you. Everyones wrapped up in their own thing, their own problems. Whatever. It's just that I feel like alot of people come to me when they need someone to talk to and when I need someone to talk to, I don't feel like anyones really there.
And I can't stand feeling bad for people all the fucking time. What-the-fuck. It's so fucking dumb.
And I'm so tired of people using me and getting bored of me.
I feel so left out any more. It's like Sharon and Angela are Best Friends. And Jackie has Jenn and all the other industrial crowd or whatever. And I never see Brittany, and plus she has her boyfriend and all her other shit going on. I don't want everyone to drop their lives and come running to me, don't get me wrong. I just don't feel like I have any good friends anymore, besides Brittany. And Don't get me wrong, I love her. But everyone I usually hang out with, just. Nevermind. Never fucking mind. Noones going to pay attention to this anyway.
I sound like a fucking 4 year old.
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[Sunday,
September 12th, 2004] |
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I went with Tara at some point today to see her grandma in a nursing home. It made me so sad because they just seemed so isolated from everything. And I remember seeing this one old lady just sitting alone on her bed staring off into nothing for about an hour until the lady came in and told her it was lunch time. I wanted to cry. I felt so bad for her and everyone in there and.. I really don't want to live past at most 60.
I sound ra-tar-did.
I feel like shit. And I feel like nobody wants to see me anymore. Way to get boring Alley.
eh. nevermind.
I have a migrain again. And laying down only makes it worse. Today was fun and all I got out of it was a shitty mood and a headache. Nice.
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[Saturday,
September 11th, 2004] |
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Yesterday I went to the mall with Sharon and Jackie. I remember when us 3 and Angela used to go all the freakin time.
Anyway.
Uh..It was fun but I don't really remember what we did.
Everyone gave me 5 dollars to do the rock climb thingy near the movies. In a skirt.
And everyone only saw my ass once. I think thats pretty damn good.
Jowil told me that I reminded him of that chick Morrigan. (I guess cuz my hair is kinda like hers) but I took that as a huge compliment.
Me and Jackie took pics! Well. Just one.
BAM!
I ttthhiinnnkk I is done.
Later ♥
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[Thursday,
September 9th, 2004] |
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this nigga went shoppin
i dont feel like writing everything i got. cuz i got alot.
uhyeah.
im reeal hootttt hdkjhgkjfd
i cant wait til
december
and january
and febuary
:)))))))))
djkasfew
how freakin pointless is this
guys...
xASteadySilenceX: i wanna update my livejournal but i have nothing to saaaay
ACloseFollowing: talk about how great you think your knee is.
ACloseFollowing: and why youre so grateful you have it.
...drew sucks =\
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[Wednesday,
September 8th, 2004] |
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Today I hung out with Amanda!! We walked around and talked about stuff. Then we ran into her two homies Derek and Josh. So they walked with us. Josh is allllll types of hott :P. And he sprayed me with his ish so now i smell manly.
I like my school and the people this year. Which is good because I won't miss nearly as much school. And I really want to do good this year because my dad wants to get me into a good highschool. And if I don't get into one (which I'm not going to) He wants me to go to either Franklin Town Charter or Northeast. Why Northeast? Beats the hell out of me.
I've been in like, the best mood ever since school started. And I'm SO happy that winters comming! yayayayay
I need more pants.
Hah, I'm such a bitch.
Later, Homes.
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[Monday,
September 6th, 2004] |
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Yeah, I've been at my grandmoms all day.
My dad called me out back for, I forget what reason. And I had writing on my hand and my NAZIGRANDPOPJOE thought I had a tatoo. And my dad was in the Ja-coo-zee and he splashed me. So I splashed him. And soommmeeehhoooww my shoe ended up in the pool. So I threw his shoe in the pool. So he threw me in the pool. So I was swimming and he tried to twach me how to dive. for the 11th year in a row. And of course, I didn't do it.
I don't wanna go to school tomorrow because I know we're actually going to be doing work.
I think I'm sunburnt?
Or something.
And the roots of the purple part of my hair are begining to turn bleach blonde. Hm.
I'm gonna do laundry and then go to sleep.
♥
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[Monday,
September 6th, 2004] |
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Um.
So much shizzle is going on.
Apparently like, cathy has "habbits" she supports and she like took all my dads money. Or, well, she did. So now me and my dad are most likely moving. Again.
Nothing new.
My dad sure does know how to pick 'em.
Hmmm...And alot of other bull shits going on that I shouldnt have to deal with, yet I am.
I should be stressed out or something but I'm not.
Whatev'.
Oh. Muh. Freakin. God.
I love how Ozzy cried when he was drunk saying "I want Alley and Brittany". SO. Of course. I took care of him. All. Freeekin. Night. And if I wasn't RIGHT next to him I wasn't there.
I'm so drained.
And I need a shower.
BUT I GOT GOOD COVER UP AND MY VANILLA BODY SPRAY!
so. im happy.
later, hoe.
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[Sunday,
September 5th, 2004] |
never ever again.
ever.
fuck.
Hm. I guess I'll go out.
Cuz I'm real bored.
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[Sunday,
September 5th, 2004] |
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I love Brittany.
Yeah. Slept over Johns. It was pretty fun.
Except for the fact that everyone was lighting shit on fire. That got me really fucking angry.
We looked like coke heads. At 5 in the morning. We were all real hyper. And Anthony gave me a bloddy nose. And Sharon and Tom were snorting lines of suger. It would have been real funny if someone walked down stairs.
Rob wrote me a letter jawn and drew me a picture.
I don't understand that fool.
hHhHHhUuUuUumMmMmM
hah i wanna go back to school =\
and i havent seen drew in FO'EVA, NIGGA.
My lemonade tastes funny
uhh, yea
♥
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[Friday,
September 3rd, 2004] |
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Alot of things that bother me, make me sad, make me cry, make me jealouse..they shouldn't. I'm way to insecure (thanks, mom..).
I'm so afraid of turning out like her, and it scares me becase everyday I notice something about myself thats just like her.
I don't want to fall madly in love with someone and have them not even like me, like she did. So I'm fucking so afraid of that, and that's what I always always think even when I just have a crush on someone or something.
I don't want to ..
I don't even feel like writing everything.
I'm just so much like her, and it's horrible. Because her mom was the same way , and my mom would always say "I'll never be like my mom, I don't want to turn out like her.."
..And she did. And not even that my mom was just a bad mother, she was just.. fucked up. To everyone.
This is why I really do want to die when I'm 30.
So I won't be here to hurt anyone.
efvhukfe
eh.
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